I’m trying my hardest to not freak the fuck out at how I have no idea the direction my life is taking. I want to go away to college but that terrifies me. It also sucks right now because somehow over the past year or two I have become a romantic – which I have never, ever been – and am basically obsessed with the possibility of having (or not having) a companion to which I come home. So of course right now I feel spectacularly alone and terrified at the future which is actually what I imagined 2013 to be. I lean on the words of John Green and Hank Green.